True Friendship is a blessing

I am more of a lonesome kind of person - I love to spend my time alone, surrounded only by my thoughts, nature and divine energy of Love. Can't remember if I've ever considered someone as the best friend. Just not that type, you know - secrets were known only by me and God, and that's enough.
Many, many, many people were coming into and going out of my life, all of them was wonderful and I know that all of them was, or is, there with good reason - God knows why and I believe Him that's what had to be.
Recently I've heard that person's life is not consider happy if the person have all kind of material treasures; the only happiness is having a true friend. Hmmmm... That thought tickled my mind over and over again... But, after all, I've realized - we all have the same best friend - God. He will never fail us. He will always be there for us. He knows excatly how we feel each moment of our lifetime and He's always by our side. The only problem is we don't appreciatte His efforts to be our friend. That is a huge loss for us. We have to open our eyes and look into our heart, and we will finally see Him, standing, waitting patiently us to notice Him. With His adorable eyes and calm smile, He conquers a person's heart immediately.
And I can say now: yes, I have the best friend. The best friend in a whole world. And I love Him. I know He loves me too. True friendship is a real blessing....

Oda divnom Bicu...

Da nije tebe, sve bi bilo teze, sve bi bilo bolnije.
Da nije tebe pored mene, ne bi bilo ni Sunca, ne bi bilo ni Boga.
Da nije moja ruka u tvojoj ruci, hladnoca bi ushla u moje Srce, u moj Hram.

Da me tvoje reci i dela nikada nisu povredile, ne bih ni znala u kakvoj sam zabludi bila kad sam mislila da me one mogu povrediti.
Da nisam osetila dodir tvojih mekih usana na mojima, mislila bih da sve sanjam.
Da te nikada nisam upoznala, praznina u srcu bi bila vecna.

Da nisi probudio dugo uspavanu veru u meni, ona bi i dalje pospano cekala da prodje zima zivota.
Da mi nisi pokazao pravi put, izgubila bih se u tamnoj shumi neznanja, lutajuci uplashena i sama.
Da te nisam srela, opet bih te volela, ne znajuci da volim bash tebe...

Da nisam sigurna da si ti osoba sa kojom zelim da provedem vecnost, otishla bih ovog trenutka od tebe.
Da beskrajno nisam zahvalna Bogu shto mi je dao priliku da te sretnem, tuga bi me skrhala.
Da nisam zahvalna tebi shto mi dozvoljavash da te volim, volela bih te u tishini i samoci.

Dala bih sve bogatstvo ovog sveta, samo da mogu da ti poklonim Vecnu Ljubav, i da ti posvetim ove reci:
"...sa tobom je svaki nacin pravi. Vazno je samo da smo i ja i ti zajedno u Srcu, a ne u glavi." ....

Just CHANT ! :o)

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna
Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare

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I love to be with you, my Dearest Friend, my saviour, my Love, my Father, oooh dear Krishna. Your sweet name is always with me - You are always with me. Actually - I'm trying to be aware of Your wonderful presence always. Thank You for Your mercy and Unconditional Love. You are giving me dozen of opportunities every day, every minute of my life, to finally realize that nothing in this World is not worth wasting precious time - nothing but chanting and consorting with You. Nothing but loving You. Nothing but pleasing You.
But, oh, I'm so weak. I'm so sinful. I don't take chances You are giving to me. Forgive me, My Dearest, forgive me. I will try again, and again, and again, and I will not give up the fight with material desires, until I reach a beautiful lotus feet of Yours....

Unconditional Love

Unconditional Love...
Oooh, that is so hard to achieve.. There are so many obstacles in the mind produced by False Ego...
Oh dear God, help me please ! Show me the way! Give me a strength to overpass this material desires. Support me in trying to reach the level of Unconditional Love. I beg you, help me. Please... I'm Yours forever...

Hvala Ti....

U odnosu sa drugim Bicima, ne trebamo im traziti greshke i mane, nego trebamo biti samilosni i pomoci im da poboljshaju svoj zivot najbolje shto mozemo.

Tu sam da ti budem podrshka i pomoc na putu kojim idesh i trudim se, najiskrenije se trudim da ne posedujem nikakva ocekivanja i zelje. Ponekad je jako teshko, Ego me pobedi i natera me da pomislim da nisi iskren, natera me da osetim tugu, natera me da osetim bol... Bol koji proistice od iluzije vezanosti i laznog posedovanja... Nemam prava na to. Nemam prava da te optuzujem. Jedini krivac sam ja, i samo ja. Neprestano se borim sa Egom... Tako je lepo pobediti Ga. Aah, lepo je skinuti veo iluzije sa ociju i videti cisto, videti da je sve Ljubav, da si Ljubav ti, da sam Ljubav ja... Neprocenjivo je vreme provedeno bez misli, bez lazi, bez ponosa; samo - blazenstvo.... Ali Ego je i dalje tu u senci, i samo ceka priliku da me opet napadne i slomi. Zna mi slabe tacke, lukav je On... Samo ceka, i ceka, i ceka, i... BAM - opet se penje na presto za neko vreme. I opet borba... Doci ce dan kada cu ga potpuno smrviti, ubiti, oterati zauvek od mene. Radujem se tom danu i radim na tome.

Hvala ti, o divno Bice ! Hvala ti ! Toliko sam toga naucila i ucim iz nasheg medjusobnog odnosa. Ali to je valjda i svrha svih odnosa koji se javljaju medju osobama - da iz njih uce i razviju shto vishe samilosti i ljubavi jedno prema drugom, prema samima sebi, prema ostalima, prema Bogu...
Vecno sam ti zahvalna za svaki trenutak i svaku misao koju si podelio sa mnom. Vecno sam zahvalna na svakoj neznoj reci, pa i na onoj gruboj - jer znam da je sve to za moje dobro i u svrhu razvoja moje svesti.... Hvala ti, o predivno stvorenje, hvala ti shto postojish! Hvala ti shto smo se sreli! Hvala ti shto zajedno idemo putem Ljubavi i hvala ti shto mi dajesh priliku da te beskrajno volim. Trudim se da mi jedino pruzanje bezuslovne ljubavi tebi bude bitno u nashem odnosu i zato ti hvala shto mi to dozvoljavash. Hvala ti shto te volim i shto svaki put pomislim na Boga kad te vidim. Ti si predivna osoba i imash dom u mome srcu koji ce uvek biti tu za tebe. Hvala ti na svemu... Sa vecnom zahvalnoshcu, odajem ti poshtovanje i bezgranicnu Ljubav...

What have I done?

Hello my dearest,

I hope you realize how much I care for You, and how I try to think of You all the time. I'm really trying to stay aware of Your presence always, but sometimes - I forget You. Unfortunately, it happens sometimes, yes. Don't be mad at me, please. And forgive me if You can. It's just to difficult for me right now to be 24/7 aware of You, but I'm learning and my will is strong. Help me on my Path please! Show me the Way or give me a sign that I'm doing fine!

I know everything You do - You do it for my own good. And I thank you for that. Even now, when I feel pain in my body, I know that's a great lesson for me (please, help me to understand this lesson and to learn how to be a better person). But it is also some kind of punishment. I know I've done so many bad things and made so many insults to You and Your friends, and this pain is just a small way of paying my debts to You. I'm sorry... I am sorry for everything wrong I've done to You. I'm sorry I've forgotten You for so many years. But now, I'm back again at Your feet, begging you to forgive me and wanting You to accept me as eternal servant of Yours.... I Love You.... 

Thank You, God !

Thank You !
Thank You !
Thank You !

When I'm happy, you are the reason of my happiness. When I'm in pain, you gave me pain just because it is the best way for me to understand some things I haven't realised before. You are giving me the life force, you are giving me the breath, you are giving me a strength to sing your Holy Name despite all the obstacles.
I see You on the sky - you always smile on everyone ; I see you in my Heart; I feel You in my Lover's hand; I sense your beautiful smell every time I hear a morning birds' song - You are the sound of waving leaves on the tree, You are a precious mountain stream. You are Everything. I LOVE YOU! I THANK YOU GOD. You gave me a chance to sing your Holy Name, to think of You, to listen about You. THANK YOU!
Oh dear God, how can I ever thank you? You brought someone special in my life and I am so grateful for that wonderful gift you gave me. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU !
I'm saying a prayer for that special person. Please, please dear God, give him a strength to be in love with You always. Give him a blessing to be your servant forever. Forgive all the mistakes he made and be merciful, like You always are...
I pray to You and I'm begging You to take a look at all my friends, family, enemies; all the beings in this Universe. Please, take away the veil from our eyes and let us see Your beautiful feet; your graceful smile...

Thank You, dear God; You are Love, Beloved, Loving and the One who loves...

Releasing

I release you. Release you with Love. Go!
That's the only right thing to do now. So, go with Love Darling, I wish you nothing but the best. Be happy, be aware, be a good man, like you always are !
I release the pain with Love, knowing that it's not Me. I release you Darling, knowing that I don't own you, like you don't own me. We don't own anything, actually. We are just living in an illusion of possession. But that's not Reality; and that's a relief.

Go with all the Love I'm giving to you, Darling !

The Question of Blame

It has been written that every relationship with some person is in deed just an illusion. In reality - every relationship we have is a Relationship with ourselves, and only ourselves. So, when you find something you don't like in your partner, for example he/she is too jealous, or he/she is to shallow to understand some things, or he/she doesn't appreciate what he/she has, you actually found something you don't like about yourself.
So, don't blame your partner for not understanding your needs or whatever you blame him/her. Just accept it as he/she is. When you accept another human being just the way it is, you will finally accept YOU.

I must admit - I (quietly) blamed my partner for being so spiritly shallow, so captured by materialism, so not tolerant with another being's needs and beliefs, but now I realise - who am I to blame him? And to blame him for what? For showing me the ugly side of me? No! He is Love, he helped me to see that I too have a bad side on which I have to work on. I haven't seen that until now. I feel like a horrible person, but I can't blame myself neither. Actually, it's noone's fault. Everything is a Game of Love, and we all are here to learn from the mistakes we made, trying not to make mistakes again. I wanna be free of the material wishes and desires. A Pleasure - invisible by eyes, untouchable by the hands, is the only Reality. But it's a long and hard way to go through.
Enough writing, start walking the right way ! :)

Nothing is real but Love

Today I've found a feeling of Sorrow. I tried so hard not having any expectations for the Love I'm giving. To give Love - that is the only true pleasure, not to take it; that's what wise men said. But I wasn't strong. This time, veil of illusion won. My Ego, my selfish Ego wanted something - a gentle kiss, a kind word, a sincere thought - anything. And he got nothing but the Sorrow.
But I know that I am not an Ego. I know that I shouldn't be feeling the Sorrow he feels. I will overcome that. But it seems so hard sometimes, isn't it? No matter how hard it is, it is the only way if I want to go forward on the path of the Apsolute Truth.
You can't hurt me, my Love, because you can't hurt yourself. Can't you see that You are Me? How can't I see that sometimes? We are so different from the outside maybe, but same in the inside. Same energy, same beauty - we are all part of The Perfect Beauty. We are all beings of Love, and I don't let illusion of Ego to cover with sorrow all that Fineness in Me, I mean You, my Love...