For A

All I wanna do right now is crying. But I won't; 'coz I'm not a cryer. I'm not. I won't let a single tear. But my heart is screaming out of pain. It's broken. And it will never be healed... I realize now that you're not real. You were never real. You're just a part of a beautiful dream, dream of love and understanding. I broke my heart with that dream. I don't ever wanna dream again... You are illusion who made me believe love doesn't know for time, distance, boundaries.... It's all my fault, I let this happened. I knew from the very start dream disappears when you woke up, but I was still hoping I will never wake up and the dream will last forever...
For more than a month i have the sam and only thought running in my head 24 hours a day - that thought was You... You. Perfectly amazingly real imagination...
Goodbye A. I wish you nothing but the best. So long, my unreachable soulmate...

Maybe we will meet in another life...

Rainbow

I remember I saw a rainbow in my dream once. Rainbow.... I kept saying that word over and over again. That was a faith. Faith spoke that magical word; I was just a mouth, nothing more. Oh, who put a spell on me? I use to walk on colours before. Red way took me to the forest of redemption. The green use to be my shelter from the mind storm. Purple, that wonderful purple. That was the colour of my smile... Golden yellow shone on every person I have met. But now, it's all gone... Where is the rainbow? I can't find it... And the rain starts to fall again. All these colours melted in grey. Why you put a spell on me? I am blinded. Give me back my rainbow...

Dreams

Last night I dreamed about death... I didn't feel any pain, no. I just felt empty. But emptiness came from outside; inner me was accomplished. Voltures of winter suddenly came to my bedroom window, take all the hope out of me and dissapear in the foggy night... I have no hope anymore. But the snow will bring me new life. Pure life. Innocent I'll be again. The snow will wash away all the dirt from my soul, all the desire from my mind, all the lust from my body... Since I don't have hope, I can see the sun again...

You'll never know...

I have never told you that I like you just as the autumn likes the fallen leaves. I have never showed how I care for you, just as the mother cares about her new born child. I have never kissed your lips like I do that for the very first time. I have never reach my hand for yours. Never.... Before... And you'll never know....