O Merciful, forgive me please...

O dearest One, the Source of all Creation, the Source of all Beings, please have mercy on this filthy ugly sinner like me. You are merciful I know, and You're always forgiving me, but I am not worth of Your Love, oh my loving Father. I am the lowest being who doesn't appreciate Your kindness. I am so sorry, forgive me for my egoism and selfishness. Teach me to be better person, please, my dear Lord. I beg You to help me to overcome all material desires and to deattached myself from sense gratification. Help me please ! I am desperate ! I wanna surrender myself into Your hands, but it's so hard to do that hence I'm still wrestling with my False Ego. I'm just a rascal who wastes precious time on karmic activities and making life miserable even more... So again, I'm begging You to help me to leave this sinful way of living and to start a life full of devotion to Your lotus feet, full of Love and gratefullness; the life of serving You, the life of Loving You eternally and unconditionally...